Lastly...The Omega...

It's been 2 years plus since i posted the first blog here. I was in CIMP at that time. Flying back to the old memories, walking past post by post, read through the whole posting. A lot of things has been changing already.

I know i'm not the active blogger with the low productivity of posting. However, more or less i shared some of my experiences to you. It might be useful but it might be not. Still, i'm happy that i was able to share with you all.

All in all.

A lot of things has been changed now. The idea that has been thought and spitted out here was still here. It's the last post for the blog i guessed. I will stop writing until i don't know when. I felt bad leaving this blog with nothing written on it. So, i just decided to stop blogging.

So, thanks a lot for you who read my blog already. Sorry, if you found it a bit offensive but it's just some simple and complicated thought from me, myself, Farid.

See you all again...

This is life, the life of extraordinary gentleman.

*wave*

Potato^^

Some of you or might be all of you will be wondering why i put potato as this title of this post. But someone out there might know why. Hehe...

Never know that potato will be so memorable.
It starts with nothing, guessed that the potato started everything.
It's not a real world i wrote about and nobody knows what i wrote about.

The sun was hiding and it was real dark.
The game was just finished and the water just touched all the human being.
Staring in the front of a glowing sand inside a box, a name that i didn't know appeared.

Just like a potato grows with care.
And sometimes bad weather come, it keeps growing no matter what.
It becomes a nice wonderful meal at the end of the day.

That's the story goes.
As the potato moved to the flour and so on, now there are so many memories on my head.
Smile and smile and smile...
At the end of the plateau, it makes my life seems more beautiful.

Big Big Thanks From Me

This is an open letter for each single of you and also everyone.

Dear all,

It's been quite sometimes since August 15th, 2009 (6 weeks ago) that i have to use crutches to transporting to everywhere. And today, I, Farid Gunawan, first of all would like to thank God for his greatness to give those wonderful experiences for the past 6 weeks. I just can't describe the feeling that i had for the past 6 weeks; happy, sad, etc, etc. However, today September 23rd, 2009, God said that i can walk again with my 2 feet.

And i would like to thank you all my friends which has been(and will always be) helping me for the past 6 weeks, taking care of me, and everything while i can't do a lot of things by myself. Big big thanks from me to all of you for your prays, care, hugs, wishes, transport :P, and everything that you all have given to me. It's a wonderful thing to know you all as my beautiful friends or i can say as a family here.

Well, all in all, i can't say your name one by one. Just, let you all know that you all just taught me how friends wonderfully and amazingly meant to me. I treasure you all and our friendship.
And people, I'M BACK!!! =)

Best regards and with love,

Farid Gunawan

They brighten up my day^^

This evening was very wonderful with them all...
I just did not expect that suddenly they all appear just like that.
All my family appeared in front of me even though it was just in the screen of my laptop. But it was nice. The conversation was normal, but the feeling when i was talking to them. It was special and wonderful. And for the first time i talked to a new member of my family, Gabrielle Alexis Caswara, even though she did not know me and have not been able to talk to me. hehe...
I just can say thank God u gave me the best family ever.

Both of My Sisters...One in Dubai and one in Jakarta...

My family^^

See.. How happy we are...

Gabrielle Alexis Caswara...

Gaby and Her dad...

Learn to walk...

The title of this post might sound funny to you all, but it's the fact that happened now. Hehe... I, Farid Gunawan, is learning to walk again (indeed with 2 legs). Wee hee!!!

As time passed by, my foot is getting better and better. Then even tough i haven't been back to the doc but i tried to walk again already (of course stilll with the help of my crutches). Seems like a baby, i am learning to walk. However, not literally i can't walk at all, but just memorizing again since i have been hopping for over than 1 month. My foot felt so stiff that it was really weird to walk again my right foot. Anyway, i made it. I MADE IT!!! I walked again with both of my legs. Isn't it cool? Hehe...

All in all, it's not just about learning how to walk again that i wanted to share to you all. A word learning there meant a lot to me, a lot til i found a lot of things that have not been found before. Learn to accept, learn to be patient, learn to be strong, learn to keep fighting, and learn learn learn. (Ancora Imparo ~ I'm still learning - Monash University) haha...

Anyway, i feel happy now. I can walk again even tough hasn't been back to normal but i'm sure it will be back to normal as I'm practicing a lot.hehe... I feel it, the confidence is back, and I think i'm ready. Yes, I AM READY!!!

"If anybody asks u who i am. Just stand up tall, look 'em in the face and say...
I'm that star up in the sky, I'm that mountain pick up high. Hey I made it, I'm the world's greatest...
And I'm that little bit of hope, when my back's against the ropes. I can feel it, I'm the world's greatest..." (R. Kelly - The World's Greatest)

I should be more patient...Maybe...

Hellow all,

I'm back.
God hasn't let me walk yet. Hehe...That's fine, lets just wait and be patient but i feel happy that my foot is getting much better. I'm sure the time will come and i'm sure i will recover soon.

I'm currently hungry (or can be said starving) while waiting for my friend to buy me food. Thx to him for buying me food. Only both of us knew :P. Hehe...
The thing is just now is quite late for me to have lunch, that is why i'm starving. Not his fault tough.

Might be i have to be more patient to the situation or others certain circumstances or some people while the murderous thought of me was not allowed by one of my friends. Haha... I should accept it with big heart while my condition is like this. I might demand very much while i should not.

Ok, i should stop here,
wasting my energy to write this while i haven't had supply of energy yet. Damn, i just cannot tahan my tears (wasting my energy also and gluceoneogenesis happened), luckily they are still on the place :P...haha...

*and i was thinking that i wanted to make this blog private because i feel that i don't have any flexibility on writing.

No offense peeps. I still love u all...

Miss My Normal Life...

Baru kali ini gw kembali lagi nulis di sini.
Masih berpikir antara mau nulis Bahasa Indonesia ato Bahasa Inggris.

Sebenernya mungkin post gw bakal pendek aja untuk sekarang.
Gw cuma pengen nulis apa yang gw rasakan sekarang ini.

Kalau terkadang ditanya gw kuat ato gak,
gw bakal jawab kuat pasti kuat.
Intinya gw cuma ga mau ngerepotin orang laen.

Tapi sebenernya di dalam hati gw yah, beginilah gw.
Sejak pertama kali dokter bilang kaki gw retak, gak tau apa yang gw rasakan.
Gw cuma takut dan yang tau reaksi gw waktu itu cuma temen gw.

Takutnya pun ga bisa gw gambarkan, semua rasanya terjadi begitu saja dan yang gw takutnya benar terjadi.
Walopun udah ketiga kalinya seperti ini, tapi tetep aj takut.
Dan sampai sekarang rasa takut itu masih ada.

Sederhana saja sebenernya sekarang,
bisa dbilang ironis ato tidak, gw pun gak tau.
Biasa disuru jalan aja males, sekarang gw bener2 kangen untuk jalan. Dan ga ada yang tau itu.
Biasa disuru mandi pagi aja males, sekarang gw kangen untuk mandi pagi. Dan ga ada yang tau itu.
Biasa ke Pyramid untuk maen bersama teman2 itu hal yang biasa, tapi sekarang mungkin menjadi luar biasa. Dan ga ada yang tau itu.

Sekarang berjalan adalah impian gw. Mandi normal menjadi impian gw. Dan pergi ke Pyramid lagi adalah impian gw. Dan mungkin ga ada yang tau itu.
Gw cuma yaking Tuhan akan selalu bersama gw. Dan Dia pasti selalu bantu gw.

Dan dimana gw menangis pas nulis ini, mungkin ga ada yang tau jg.
Hanya Tuhan dan gw yang tau.

Cheers everyone, I'll be back soon... =)